One month down...

Well, January was officially the longest month of my life. Every day was filled with thoughts of what to eat and what not to eat, and how much I weigh, and disappointment for not losing much weight, and excitement for dropping a little without counting calories or macros, and wondering how I would feel at the end of the month.

Overall, I feel better. I feel proud for making a goal and sticking with it. I am grateful that the annoying mind chatter is gone. I know that this choice is good for my body and health.

On December 29, 2017 I weighed in at 162 and was mortified. But only 2 days later (still on sugar), on January 1, 2018 I weighed in at 159.6. The lowest number I saw this month was 157.7. So I'm going to say I lost about 2 pounds this month. A half a pound a week isn't bad when you are eating whenever and whatever you want (except sugar, of course). So I'll try to be happy with that weight loss. I honestly was expecting more. It seems a drastic change to not have drastic results. My body REALLY loves to hang on to fat. I just need to keep learning and trying what will work for me.

I think I need to try harder to avoid the bad carbs this next month - the bread, white rice, tortillas, chips, etc...maybe I'll see a little more weight loss. Those things did not cause cravings for me, but probably don't help when I'm trying to lose weight.

I'm also going to try to only eat 3 balanced meals a day. I read a book called "The Obesity Code" and he explains that we don't need to feed our bodies all day every day - we were never built for that kind of diet. So I'm going to stick with 3 meals around 8am, 12:30pm, and 5:30pm. Maybe that will give my body a chance to use fat for energy. He is a big proponent of fasting. I tried the intermittent fasting last year (fasted from 7pm to 11am), and it was messing with me. I would overeat the rest of the day because I had been so hungry all morning. I think if I ever fast for weight loss I would need to do one day a week for 24 hours.

Mistakes I've made and learned from:
1. We bought Reddi Whip after a friend told me that's what she uses for pancakes/waffles/etc (it has less than a gram of sugar per serving). I found I was craving it, and definitely eating it when I shouldn't. So there's a hard rule that I only can use it with breakfast, and never more than 6 TBS (3 servings).
2. We bought Dextrose after I finished "Sweet Poison" because he says he uses it to replace sugar in treat recipes. I made some no-bake cookies with it and immediately felt guilty because they were delicious and I ate 3 that day. I also ate 3 the next day. Not a habit that I want to be in. So Dextrose is out. Tom and I discussed allowing 1 dextrose treat a month. We'll see. :/
3. I ate Laney's peanut butter and honey sandwich that I had made for her lunch, but she refused it, and I was hungry. I had never made a hard rule about honey, but it's definitely out. I was wanting treats the rest of the day. That's actually the day that I made the cookies.
4. Stevia is gross in baking. I won't be using it again.
5. Canned fruit is also out - I've always bought the "no sugar added" canned fruit and thought it was fine, but it is sweetened with sucralose and I've decided it's not worth the risk.

Things that don't bring on cravings, but help when I mentally need to feel like I've had a treat: gum, Stevia in low sugar cereal, Crystal Light energy, fruit ice cream, PB/banana ice cream.

So here's to February. I want to keep track of my food intake each day to makes myself accountable. Really focus on the less than 3g of sugar per food limit. January was spent learning the rules and my own limits. I tested some boundaries, because I am a recovering sugar addict, and found what brings on the cravings and what doesn't. I would love to see more weight loss and more energy in February.

One more thing. I need to exercise more. I know this. But my body is fighting it. I've been using a new Fitbit watch, and I love having the explicit step/stair/calorie goals, but I don't think it's enough. I should be building muscle and pushing myself to do hard things. I am stuck in a rut right now, and still don't have a good plan. I want to be doing BeachBody at least 4 times a week, but I'm so lazy that I can't get myself to push play during naps like I had planned. I've been sleeping a lot, when I should be doing the workouts first thing in the morning. So in February I will do it. I will work out 4 times a week during naps, no matter how much I don't want to.


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